Stuck in Time W/O FP

Does anyone have trouble doing ANYTHING without their FP? I have unmanaged BPD and, yes, I'm trying to get a therapist and stuff (it's harder & more expensive in my area), but they're away for the day and have been texting me reassurances but i've been bedrotting for hours. I should've been doing at least something I enjoy, but I haven't done a single thing all day. It's been hours since I woke up. I've sat up once and still haven't gotten up. They won't be home for a while and I suddenly feel like I have no hobbies, no interests, no nothing. I feel awful. Any advice / anyone who knows how to overcome this?