any advice pls 🙏🏽 (sex issues)

I fear my low sex drive will ruin my current and any future relationships I get into. don't get me wrong I'm attracted to ppl no doubt,I'm pan I don't even care what gender. but ik struggling again around late last yr I found that my lady parts well felt numb. nothing could help I've tried everything it went away not too long after (I spoke to a friend they said it's most likely my meds and ik that's probably the cause but does anyone else struggle?) here recently I felt numb again, I felt ashamed of myself idk if it had to do with forcing myself to get off (I didn't feel like masturbating anyway but thought I should) but even if I feel like I'm "in the mood" I can't feel anything. before u suggested talking to my partner/future partners I did they seemed understanding but I got a joke instead. though it was probably just to lighten the mood bc I already split badly the day prior the reassurance didn't stop my brain ofc from overthinking. I don't want to disappoint anyone more than I already have in my life. I don't want to make anyone feel I don't love or that I'm not attracted to them. I need advice pls<3.