Home is wherever mom is

I've always been thankful to have her by my side. And today I just feel so good that she's my mom. Ik she would never read this but I just want the world to know what a gem of a mother I have. I genuinely do not deserve her. She's always been so busy and stressed out about her work and a lot of other things but she never let anyone know about that. Today I had my jee exam and my mom as always stayed there for me outside the centre. When I came out she didn't even ask me how my paper went or something like that. Just hugged me and said "Abhi shaant ho jao mai hu na yaha. Ghar jaake aaram karna". And i swear I would have cried I don't deserve her. All the nights I was studying she was awake too. All the time I was sad she hugged me and held me close. She prayed for me endlessly when she should have prayed for herself. And whenever I ask her why do you love me so much she just says there is no reason to not love you, you being my daughter is enough to love you. Oh God how I love her. I do not believe in God but I see my mom and I do feel God exists. She's magical. I don't deserve her. I just hope in another life she doesn't give birth to me and live her life the way she wants. There is no sacrifice that I could make to compensate for what she has done for me. Sometimes when I feel like life is tough I just look at her, she's my backbone, she's my pillar. Sometimes I want to end it all but then sometimes she holds my hand and cuts up fruits for me without asking and I feel maybe...maybe...life isn't that cruel.