Is this all a coincidence?
So I cracked almost 2 weeks ago, and since then, I've been getting dysphoria and thoughts of wanting to be a girl way more often than before
This is of concern to me since before I cracked these thoughts and feelings were only happening once every 2 weeks to 2 months, but now that I've cracked particularly these last 5 days, they're happening daily, sometimes even every 3 hours.
The dysphoria I've been feeling just feels fake to me too, as if I'm just gaslighting myself into feeling this way a lot more often than before.
It also feels fake because I accepted myself only 5 hours after cracking. I knew not accepting myself for a long time would only hurt me, but I feel like it happened too fast.
Is me getting these thoughts and feelings something directly caused by the crack, correlation but not causation, a coincidence, or just me straight lying to myself?